The Queerest Sort of Feeling...

Just a heart..

John is a name of many men... a very common name... but the John I know is a complete opposite of the characteristic of his name. He is completely a unique young man whom I fell in love with. He, who made me feel loved and special in any way.. He gave me that feeling.. as defined by Ms. Alexandra Lawrence from the book Something Wonderful of Judtih McNaught when she was asked by her friend, Mary Ellen "what does it feel like to you—loving a man, I mean?" she answered " it's the queerest sort of feeling, but exciting too... you know, happy, but worried that I look a fright, and sad too, because I'm afraid he'll leave if I'm not amusing and just right, and then I'll lose him". Exactly.. 
John is the first man I fell in love with.. a love I know deeper than any other infatuation.. And I felt exactly what Alexandra felt.. it's a very queer feeling...

To cut the story short... I love John with my whole heart.. and the feeling that I have for him is very queer. I see something in him that I love very much.. and this "something" must be "something wonderful".